I love my meandering life!

Strangely I only get an urge to blog when I'm sitting at a desktop computer.. Wonder what that is??
Anyway so this is one day I've gotten far from the madding crowd, not home in bangalore, not with my folks, not with anyone, just I, me , myself.... loving it :) Its technically an off day so phone calls and emails aren't flooding me today. I'd say this is the perfect reflective time off...

Its been a while since I've really sat down with a cup of coffee and done nothing or thought about nothing, not writing a 'to do' list as I'm sippin' away, not texting other people to add to their to do's or stalking other people coz I've gotta follow up with them (well... I may have made a call or two!!) .
So tis times like these (and the office is gonna go crazy when they see that I've used 'tis' in a sentence) that I wish I had well, more times like these...

Not that I don't absolutely love my job; visiting 3 cities every two weeks, living out of a suitcase, blessed that I live with family and friends at all 3 places instead of hotels... meet the most gifted and interesting people, do a job that finds respect in every environment, why wouldn't I love where I am?? I absolutely do. Its exactly what I've dreamed of, meandering, ambiguous, exciting every moment and I actually have a chance at changing the way people see themselves at their workplace (watch this space for more on this...)

Still didn't realize how much I crave 'me' time until today....

I mean I am on my own when I get home... and sometimes the loneliness does get to you... but I'm on my way to making that 'alone' time into 'aparna' time... and thank god for that! What does all this gibberish mean?? nothing really. Just that it would be amazing when I've successfully ensured 30 minutes just for myself everyday... to write... take a walk... not get too distracted... would be great no?
My friends do this soooo well... so many of them so good at escaping into their space. But its so tough for me...
Today was the first time... and this is good.

Still I know that the only reason this 'me' time is so priceless coz there's so much 'everyone' time in my life. Since my life is so much of a rollercoaster, taking a step back matters!! I wonder if I'd need this if things were more balanced. Alone time would probably drive me nuts!!
So net net, one doesn't exist without the other. And I'm glad this is the way for me... Love the fact that I work at a frenetic pace which makes me appreciate the lack of it so much more :)

.... later....